Thursday, July 28, 2005
Private Personal Freedom
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yeap, that's what everyone wants isn't it?
I dun like people to know me too well. why? i dunno.... i just dun like it. I believe everyone keep some secrets to themselves. so as to protect ourselves......so as to keep those sweet and bitter memories to ourselves. Sometimes.. sweet memories seem to be more painful than the latter.
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It hit and struck me hard on the back whenever i start reminiscing on them. This phrase: "It's REALITY, wake up..." will then encircle upon me, and negative thoughts starts pouring in.. and it's like a heavy storm, showing no willingness to get me back on the grip. Tears came then.. just like the rain, uncontrollable. So is too much of a good thing bad for us? i shouldn't have gone to taiwan to see you... i know this will happen. but on the other hand, the times we had tghr in kaohsiung was really magical..unforgettable. It's as though we are back tghr again during our sec2 life. sigh..
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STOP...i just have to stop thinking of you. I'm really trying to.. but should i let it go naturally or abruptly? both dun seem to work for me. cuz back to square one.. I JUST CANT LET IT GO. I still cant accept the fact that people come and go in our life. Nooooooooo...they dont. they dont.......
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What holds you back upon your death bed?
It's our memories that hold us back.. Love is the best gift god has given us, not money nor fame. But people just dont cherish it. so why should we let go?
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You know quite well, deep within you, that there is only a single magic, a single power, a single salvation...and that is called loving.
Well, then, love your suffering.
Do not resist it, do not flee from it.
It is your aversion that hurts, nothing else.